This worries me alot, today for the first time I've started thinking like an adult, thinking less about exactly what I want and more about who I have to be to get anywhere :/
Confused? I am!
I have realised that not everything can last forever. A notion which hit me due to my job interview today when I had to take out my eyebrow piercings. In the past 5 months I have dropped 3 piercings and I really don't want to put them back in. Since I started getting piercings back in college I've always used them as something to hide behind. They're a talking point and they allow me to avoid talking more about myself...but they don't help me get a job!
The sad fact of life is that people look down on alternative types and metal heads because generally we are big on tattoos, piercings and other body mods and while this is prejudice, it is something which will probably never be dealt with because it is not deemed an important issue. Too many people see body mods as being taboo. it makes you unemployable. While I understand completley if somebody has a face full of metal or "ANAL C*NT" tattooed on their forearm, I fail to see how an eyebrow, tragus or tongue piercing can make me that unattractive to employers.
However it does, and it is something which I have been forced to come to terms with, but the more I think about it the less I feel aggrieved at having to remove my eyebrow piercings. I want to become a teacher, I could not have so many piercings in if I wish to do this because it would be unprofessional.
While I can (and do) rant on about wanting to keep my identity, it's clear that my identity is not really related to the various bits of metal I stick through myself. I am a metal head. I wear nothing other than band t-shirts and jeans, i play guitar and sing, i enjoy horror films and books and get on with pretty much anyone unless I'm being difficult! This is what I am, and it will forever be who I am. Taking my piercings out doesn't make me any less metal and it certaintly doesn't mean I'm a totally different person. I had the same issues when I cut my hair and for the most part it is all in my head but now everything is crystal clear...and it feels very very weird
On this day:
- 1971 - Snoop Dogg Born
- 1973 - The Saturday Night Massacre. President Nixon fires the US Attorney General and his deputy for refusing to fire Watergate Special Prosecutor Archibald Cox
- 1977 - Lynyrd Skynyrd's plane crashes in Mississipi, killing Ronnie Van Zant, Steve Gaines, Cassie Gaines, the road manager and both pilots
Peace, Love, Empathy
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